Our little Christmas tree! Well it was actually a pretty big Christmas tree, so we ended up cutting some off the top and some off the bottom and when we finished it looked like the middle section of a tree because that's what it was!
Is this a pretty picture of me? Should I put it on facebook? Someone might see it and then know that sometimes I'm not as pretty as I am in other pictures. I know I'm just not as objectively attractive as some no matter how flattering the picture. But does this one qualify as 'pretty' to someone who has never seen me before? Do I trust someone who doesn't know me to see that I am brave because this picture is hiding none of my flaws? The wrinkles around my eyes, the dark shadows under them, my wider nose, my puffy cheeks that hide my cheekbones. That's the honest way I look. Why is this hard? I think who I am is beautiful and what I look like cannot be separated from who I am. I was hiking, I was in the mountains, I was awe-struck by the beauty around me, I was totally happy. It makes me sorrowful to reflect on how much I worry about if I look pretty. Every girls wants to be told they are pretty, right? No....
Bear watching/clam digging in Alaska I came to Salt Lake at the tail end of the worst 6 months of my life. After a huge disappointment in the love department I managed to still attend enough classes and beg for enough extra time to finish enough final papers to graduate with my masters degree. For months after I felt the pressure and feelings of failure of not being able to find a job. I separated my shoulder and so I was not able to run or hike or bike or play frisbee or even swim...basically everything that keeps me happy, healthy, and connected. I tried to deal with it...and by that I mean I watched every episode of Parks and Recreation. I spent hours applying for jobs and more hours sitting in parks reading, hoping no one could tell how pathetic I felt. I did the mind-numbing walk/run up and down 'the Y' over and over because it was the only thing I could do with my injury that was challenging but safe. I was offered a job in St. George. ...
The day started out so good. Smoothie bowl with fruit from a little local bakery This view for breakfast. We went down to the dock to board our boat, which was supposed to be a really nice tourist boat. Clean, cabins with AC, nice places to louge in the shade, the works. But instead we boarded a pirate ship. Probably. The guy who ran the tour company put us on the boat and sent us on our way before we really had the presence of mind to ask questions. After a rocky and worrisome departure where the engine kind of worked and the youngest crew member was swimming in the water to pull the boat...we looked around. No AC. Broken fans. Bugs all over the mattresses. Dirty boat. Nowhere to sit, just a big box in the middle of the boat, and an upper deck for scorching yourself with the equatorial sun if you so chose. Crew that did not speak English. OK wait what oops. Save us. I have worked on boa...
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