This is Rome, Lauren and I were very lost and we decided to take a picture of how sad we were to cheer ourselves up. Out of all my Italy pictures, this is probably the most normal
Is this a pretty picture of me? Should I put it on facebook? Someone might see it and then know that sometimes I'm not as pretty as I am in other pictures. I know I'm just not as objectively attractive as some no matter how flattering the picture. But does this one qualify as 'pretty' to someone who has never seen me before? Do I trust someone who doesn't know me to see that I am brave because this picture is hiding none of my flaws? The wrinkles around my eyes, the dark shadows under them, my wider nose, my puffy cheeks that hide my cheekbones. That's the honest way I look. Why is this hard? I think who I am is beautiful and what I look like cannot be separated from who I am. I was hiking, I was in the mountains, I was awe-struck by the beauty around me, I was totally happy. It makes me sorrowful to reflect on how much I worry about if I look pretty. Every girls wants to be told they are pretty, right? No....
Bear watching/clam digging in Alaska I came to Salt Lake at the tail end of the worst 6 months of my life. After a huge disappointment in the love department I managed to still attend enough classes and beg for enough extra time to finish enough final papers to graduate with my masters degree. For months after I felt the pressure and feelings of failure of not being able to find a job. I separated my shoulder and so I was not able to run or hike or bike or play frisbee or even swim...basically everything that keeps me happy, healthy, and connected. I tried to deal with it...and by that I mean I watched every episode of Parks and Recreation. I spent hours applying for jobs and more hours sitting in parks reading, hoping no one could tell how pathetic I felt. I did the mind-numbing walk/run up and down 'the Y' over and over because it was the only thing I could do with my injury that was challenging but safe. I was offered a job in St. George. ...
I woke up early the next morning when it hit. The dreaded fate of so many travelers. Food poisoning. We don't know what it was from. We had a fancy Italian meal for dinner, and for lunch we had food that had been stored in the boat for who knows how long, at who knows what temperature and cooked who knows how well. We suspect the boat food was the culprit but we'll never know. Chelsea also wasn't feeling well but she wasn't quite as sick as me. All I could do was go from lying in bed to the bathroom and back. No eating. No sleeping. No medicine would stay down...or up...or in...you get the picture. Thankfully I have some great friends with experience in medicine and/or traveling abroad who talked me through what to do (thanks to Liz and Jackie!). Chelsea was so good and kept me supplied with water and plain bread when I needed it to take medicine. We were flying out of Labuan Bajo that afternoon...which was going...
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