a tall personality

The last music therapy session was all about how I'm sad and disappointed and stuff sometimes.  Wow, I feel like lack of school is already having a negative effect on my writing.  That last sentence.  Wow. Maybe that's my style now? Anyway, here are some songs that almost never fail to make me smile and usually succeed at making me dance. Mika- Lollipop Oh My Gosh.  I am so sorry about the possibly slightly distasteful parts of this video but it is just too funny not to post.  I had to watch the part at 1:28 twice because it was so funny!  Wait, I just watched it again after I wrote that so that's three times.  HOLY COW I have not seen something this funny on youtube since the Harvard Sailing Team "Boys will be girls" skit.  This is one of those things I'll be embarrassed to have recommended to the more sophisticated people who read my blog who won't think it's funny.  But it really is funny. About the song, I just love it!  It's fun, simple

I graduated officially.  It was actually pretty overwhelming and sad and I don't really want to write about yet, but my whole family came to visit and that was AWESOME! So instead of writing about graduation I'm gonna do some music therapy!  For myself I mean, like this is my music therapy. I usually don't listen to the songs people put up on their blogs, so I don't really expect people to listen to mine, I just wanted to share that they're cool and why. There are a lot of stupid songs about life and relationships but these are some that I think actually have great lyrics (or at least great lines) and they mean something to me personally. First and newest: Pink- Just Give Me a Reason. Some of the lyrics of this song are really corny but the chorus is fantastic. "Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough, just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again. It's in the stars It's been written on the scar

Sometimes I paint pretty things. And sometimes I paint things that aren't that pretty but are a good idea, like this one.  The words, in case you can't read them say "Oh God our help in ages past, our hope for years to come, our shelter from the stormy blast, and our eternal home. Under the shadow of thy throne, still may we dwell secure, sufficient is thine are alone, and our defense is sure." I just love that song so much I felt to paint it one day.  And today I found the picture of it on my phone. Also, here are a couple of thoughts: 1. Today I took my last final.  Ever (maybe).  At least for the foreseeable future.  I first celebrated by talking with my favorite professor and classmate about Batman, of course.  I'm definitely going to miss stuff like that.  Then I went to my favorite spot by the Lake, practiced my favorite game with one of my favorite friends at my favorite park, then another game I like and one more friend I like.  Dinner at

Today I was re-reading my  notes from the last General Conference (something I always intend to do but rarely actually do.  I think this means I have had a lot of free time on my hands, like A LOT.  Free-time is just about the most uncomfortable thing in the world to me).  As I was reading them I kept thinking to myself WHAT?  Did you really write this 3 weeks ago and already forget it?!  Some of the things I had written down were direct, clear, and obvious answers to the questions I have been asking myself. A lot of them are about connecting with people. I thrive on connection, but it is something I have been feeling a sharp and painful loss of lately so it was on my mind as I listened to my church's leaders a few weeks ago.  It has been on my mind a lot since as well.   I felt to share some of them. "Call down the powers of Heaven to help you connect.  You have made covenants with him, you keep them and he will help you." "Use nature to connect instead of

As part of a substance abuse treatment class this semester I gave up eating all sweets for three and a half months.  It was supposed to help us understand addiction, relapse, cravings, and all those things that are hard to really get without experiencing them.   We had to write a final paper about our experience, and I want to share some parts of mine because I know many many people (myself included) with difficult habits that could be called addictions that they would like...or desperately want...to stop, but struggle.   I know giving up sugary food seems like a trivial thing but it was a powerful experience for me.  Here are some of my most valuable insights: As a side note, since in class we were comparing our experience to that of drug users, when I say "use" I mean consuming sugary foods. "W hen I relapsed it wasn't the food that I wanted. I just wanted to not worry about abstinence for a little while.  The relief of letting my guard down at that

This is just so beautiful I couldn't help but include it!  I have a huge crush on Utah right now. I originally intended to make a montage post of all of the drafts I have written in the past few months...but it was just so depressing that I thought...better not. Then I thought I'll just write about each month in one sentence! Still depressing... So this is what I've got for catch-up, not that I owe it to anyone, but once I thought of this analogy I kind of wanted to use it. I've kind of felt like I was in that part in the movie 127 Hours when Aaron Rawlston has to cut off his arm with a blunt knife.  At one point his arm was detached beyond all hope, all he had left to do was sever the nerves.  Though they served no purpose anymore cutting them was still shockingly painful.  But once he did he hiked out with one less arm and one INCREDIBLE experience. Comparing my life to someone who had to amputate his arm to save his life from a canyon deathtrap is drama